Maybe an angel.....

At the cancer center, I seen many there starting their first treatments, overhearing the questions being asked knowing the answer to something that 6 months ago I wouldn't have a clue.

It saddens me because I don't not like to see despair of any kind and knowing what I know in the stage that I was in I offer advice, its free and I believe I can save lives.

When you feel like giving up, DON"T, if you love life now make it a point to stay positive, call me and I will hold your hand. Being strong willed will make the journey easier.

Radiation burns, chemo makes you ill but fighting prevents the disease of winning.

At times you will not want to eat, eat anyhow, if you get sick you will at least get some vitamins from it.

I explained I received 43 sessions of radiation in my chest and neck area which caused burning but it killed the spread and 9 sessions of chemo that finally terminated the tumor. Lost bone that housed a major nerve, the tumor had destroyed the area.

Five and half months have passed, there is no sign of the tumor, no traces of cancer, the surgery that was spoken of erased, the bone has healed itself. Miracle child maybe, I had a will and that was to show the world I wanted to live.

Nothing in life that you want is easy, we all fight daily for it. Fighting for your life is a huge goal but the rewards are truly more precious than anything I could describe.

If you NEED me, let me hold you hand, I will fight the fight with you. In my heart and mind, there is no such thing as giving up. We can beat this together, I swear :)

God knows I am not a savior but I do try to help!!

xxxooo

shaunabaggtt@gmail.com

The woman in me

I had a really rough year in 2011, who would of known it would be filled with the thought of death from a deadly disease and losing a fantastic job I believe was from the cancer.

Discovering the cancer in June 2011 I fought for what is mine and I can honestly say it never had a chance of taking my life.

So now it is 2012, I moved back to Illinois from Virginia. A job was promised to me but would find out the company lied and will not answer calls or emails.

Seen the new chemo doctor in Illinois, she had MRI, Pet Scan and CT scans done on me...
with a huge smile the doctor gives me the news. I am officially in remission, the cancer, tumor is completely gone. The damage it left behind is completely healed, no reconstruction surgery is needed.

I have been seeing my therapist whom also gave me my first letter and also the doctor who will be my gender and general practitioner.

Today, Monday the 12, I have returned from my doctor. I have had full blood tests, full physical and every lab they can come up to be sure I have no trace of cancer anywhere. My hormones were a huge question the testosterone is under 120 and a nonexistent prostrate was found ( no chance of cancer there). Normal total testosterone levels range from 300 - 1000 ng/dL. I had also a chromosome test and it states my results are 47,XXY which is Klinefelter syndrome.


For the longest time what I was expressing to friends and family I was female and was laughed at or made fun of or was told it was a phase in my life, well for all medical and legal matters I am genetically female, the only male existence is the penis. I have estrogen in my body at the level 45, the average female is between 25 – 75. I am now officially just using estrogen, no spiro and no pre estrogen.

So for two months I have been searching for work, then I get a call from Ricoh asking me to apply there. I was given three interviews while competing against 200 people. Ricoh gave me a offer letter yesterday 03/2012.

Wow alot has happen since I wrote last. I am planning surgery for my complete srs and breasts which is needed hehe, too small on top. I will keep you all in touch as my hair is now growing back.

I really do make a attractive bald woman.....but I love my hair.