You really don’t know me!

Did you happen to know I have been hiding from you Dad and Mom? Ever wonder what it is like to be laughed and made fun of growing up with my oddities?

Why I was teased and beat up because I looked and acted different?All my girl friends were becoming women while I idlely watched and cried, it really wasn't fair. Yes I was the "sissy" in the family, did you happen to think why that was, why I was so feminine while my brothers weren't and did you even notice that it didn't bother me when you called me that? Yes I am different, only because you made me that way and I had accepted it for fear of punishment. Look at me today, I am a woman, not 100% outside but very beautiful on the inside. I have become that woman that you tried so hard to keep from coming out, I am more comfortable as Shauna and I am more lively too. It has brought back my happiness, my dreams and my desires of becoming the writer too. My friends accepted me because I will always be the person I grew into and that will never change. I wish you and mom would have known I was different than other children but I became a very loving and caring person which is why I have many friends who care about me, and many more who I have never met but also are as concerned as if I met them. I touch hearts and lives because I am a good person. Shauna will now be living as I have promised her many many years ago, as she steps out into the world (2009) I will step into that area where she has been for 46 years. So please don't be angry or disappointed, your "sissy" has grown up.

I am not leaving, we are becoming one and you know what...that is a beautiful thing. ((smiling))