Happier than I ever been in a long time

My therapy went well, it brought out so many memeories which I had forgotten but now I will have to address each one as they come out.
I want to thank Deb and her daughter Melissa for making it all possible because Deb is my Gender Therapist and Melissa is my Socialization Guide which is teaching me female etiquettes and poise, and giving me my self esteem so I will be more passable, I know I can walk out that door into the world but.....I need to address my family issues.
At this point, I really am tired of hiding I really just want to be happy. My best friend said a comment to me last night over dinner regarding my manicured nails which told me he will most likely take it hard about my coming out. With my therapy I found some things that makes me happy, my personality is awesome and I have a winning smile which people love and that is good I suppose. When I photo myself, I find enjoyement because I am expressing who I am and that is a good thing. I am better at makeup now, youtube has shown me that and thank goodness for the internet.
I plan on taking hormones soon, hopefully this year which will help me become more like myself, the estrogen in my body comes in spurts which has left me with undeveloped eveything, so the hormones will help me.I very much love being myself dressed in jeans, blouse and heels or a skirt, whichever I am dressed, it doesn’t matter because it is who I am on the inside. My outside is just for show, the real person is inside. I would like people to understand I am the same person in a dress and it shouldn’t matter because I am so happy.I believe the hormones and my corset will give me my full affect in my walk and my wearing of skirts or dresses, and maybe next year I can wear that bathing suit lol.
I love wearing pretty things, it feels so right and boy do I fuss over myself when I am getting ready. You should see me now in heels, ha, ha, ha I can now run in a 3 1/2 inch heel which I now know it was a size issue. I went from a 13 to a 11 and that brought me balance. I walk naturally in them, and ladies I am all girl lol. I am thinking of going dancing with heels, ballroom dancing with a gown oh my, can you imagine. Cinder Shauna rella lol

I am ready to step out into the world, the islandgirls are expecting me to show up this Wednesday and I have made the decision to show up as my beautiful self. What to wear, maybe leggings and a tunic and now my beautiful purse *laughs*.

So if you see a beautiful brunette driving a pickup, wave because that will be me making my debut finally, Shauna is almost home.