Shauna’s dream

This is so difficult walking in flats, it was the most embarrassing time in my life, I walk like a man, why? Who knew, everyone!
In heels its different, my hips sway, my breasts push up and out and my behind is also pushed out, I look so natural but the flats I look like a man. I need to find a center for femininity where I can be taught what it is natural.I have the looks, grant you to be Shauna 100%, but when I speak it isn't softed yet and when I walk it is clumsy like a man and that brings me to tears because I do want to fit it. I can put makeup on so perfectly, I am so proud of you girls teaching me which you had said practice practice practice which is why I know this now :) But with the looks, (one step) points to me as a clumsy man in flats. Christina, she knows how to walk, Sally knows how to walk. All you ladies know this, and yet maybe I am trying too hard (pouting) and I walk like a clod.Last night was the big dance, Spring Fling 08 which wasn't all that big but there were many CD's there, some GG's and me. In heels I was gracefull, very natural. I had a waitress ask me if my husband dressed which I of course said no, I am not married and left it in the air with a smile.
How can it be that with my natural looks of a woman change me into a man by walking, my hips are centered, my elbows are always in and wrists pointed out yet I walk like a horse (pouting again). I think I will look for a beauty class to teach me the fine art of being Shauna for real, I hate looking dumb in a dress.
When the day comes, I will walk, talk, sneeze, cough, sit, laugh and smile as a 100% woman and that is my life long goal.
Stay tuned!!!