Little by little

I did something today which I am somewhat pleased with but also has be on one of my emotional rollercoasters.
I came out to a really wonderful and very close GG which is a best friend. Oh my just writing the email alone had me in jitters because I could have lost her but no, she stood by me and that was so wonderful.
We talked for hours while I worked on her laptop but I feel closer now more than ever.I must have cried a good 20 minutes after sending it, I wouldn’t want to lose her for anything but I am getting tired of hiding too.

Can you imagine for just one moment what it must be like to come out little by little, it kills me with these stomache aches. I look so forward to walking outdoors without a worry in the world. I wish people would understand that we are people too and we have feelings as well.She even said I am a very beautiful woman, and that means so much to me.So yes I made another attempt to push this heavy closet door open.
I did it, the door is moved again, oh just knowing how wonderful the feeling to know people are so understanding. She knew it from a letter I wrote a couple months ago, she is such a smart lady which I have much respect for too. Just think you are gaining a girl friend someone who REALLY understands what your talking about.

I do hope my best friend is as understanding when I step up and tell him that for 35 years I have been hiding. There are so many people in my life, my family, my friends which I have hundreds and clients. I have touched so many people with my kindness.I just want people to know yes I am Shawn but my shell is Shauna, we are the same person and always have.

I am the sweetest person you will ever meet and just want to be happy which I haven’t really been in 46 years, the last three has been what I have been wanting...please world, please accept me for myself and not all the harsh things people think.

Just imagine I have been Shauna just not in a dress or makeup, I have been so understanding lending my ear for all now I ask for the same in return, oh I am coming out whether you like me or not, it will be a fight but I have been through worse but I will have back up, and you will see I was right!