What is happening in my life now...

I realize now that maybe my father never knew what had happen when I was born, nor my mother for that matter. As I was growing from my childhood till puberty I was a normal little boy I suppose, but all that was to change when I went to see the doctor and found my deformity of my gentials.
I just want to say I don't blame anyone but god for my mishap, nothing could have been done and now as an adult experiencing what I have I now know more which has explained so much of the whys and why nots.
No matter what I am still a beautiful person, whether I am either gender because that is who I am. I am at this time experiencing premenopause which is driving me crazy, one minute I am so happy and the next I am an emotional wreck. I have been so fatigued that I have to lay down to sleep because I get a head ache like no one can believe. My estrogen levels are changing, which can explain why I am now experiencing facial hair at 46, I never had to shave everyday in my whole life. I would have shave 3 times a month and it was very few hairs. (thanks to electrolsys and laser hair rmoval I will not be shaving anymore)
The testostrone is up there I believe but the estrogen is leveling off and that isn't what I want. I love being feminine, it is a part of me, it is what makes me happy. So as soon as I can afford it, I will have the doctor put me on HRT and remove my one testes.

So to say with all my blogs, I believe my father never knew or he sure played it off real well.