For my Father and Stepmom

Such a shocker huh, your good looking oldest son with all the greatest friends, successful and comes out to the world that he now wants to be a woman and give up all hopes and dreams. Hmm why do you think I would want that, give up on my dreams or give up my friends? Hmm why do you think I would want that, give up on my dreams or give up my friends?

Did you happen to notice I was depressed, not just lately mind you, say for the last 35 years.

Oh yes I covered up my life, I covered up because I had no one to talk to about my problems. Marriage was when I really woke up, the doctors and urologists who pointed out my little disorder. Imagine your son with the look of sadness on his face when the urologists said you will never bear children, you have NO SPERM COUNT!!
Do you see what I am saying here, I have one testes, where is the other one? My one testes is the size of a five year old, OMG what happen to me god? I wanted children, I could of been a great parent but I was never given the chance because something went wrong in birth.
I guess being a woman wouldn't please you either, as a man I was a failure too for you, but atleast let your son be the girl he was supposed to be. I will always be *sis* and I learned to live with it.
I remember growing up you used to say, never give up on your dreams, well this has been one of my biggest and now what, give up?I hurt all the time, emotionally drained and crying all the time. Why must I endure all this grief and my own parents look at me like *what*?

I have always been there for you two, I do the things your other children can't do or refuse to do, why do you turn me away, why? I am beautiful, I am a woman in a mans body and I am unhappy in my present state, please, please understand why I need this. Always been feminine, soft skin and mannerisms, and god only knows the emotional way about me. This is better than dying, I was emotionally unstable and I wanted you to listen, to understand and maybe, just maybe stand behind me like all my brothers and sister. Maybe like all my friends, whom you think are not with me on this.
I am sorry Dad, I am who I am because you taught me to follow my dreams. You know what? It doesn't matter, I am who I am because I love myself and if I fail as a person (not a gender or a label) then I fail. Whether you love me or not, I am loved by many and that is all that counts!

Believe it or not, my finding myself has given reasons why I need to be here.