Why we are the way we are 2

So I have explained some of the actions the transgender must do to become the soul who resides in the body.

I will take you now into another part of the transition which I am in now, acceptance of ones self. I was very depressed for many, many years which I never let anyone know why because I was stealth, hiding my intersex condition. As each year passed, I seemed to sink deeper in my depression till one day it happened; I broke down and cried for almost a full day. I ended up at the therapist, someone who never knew who I was to help me with my issues.

Now seeing someone may help you overcome your being stealth, help you come out, here is someone you do not know and you are pouring your heart out to them. Actually it was a relief to get it off my chest all these years. Also you will need to see a therapist before you begin your (HRT) for evaluation. (I will explain later)

The things we do to become who we are is incredible, like the electrolysis which is to remove the hair on your face, neck and where ever you want it removed. The costs can be $25.00 to $400.00 depending what you want for how long. This is permanent, forever, no returning ever. With electrolysis the technician slides a needle into the pore with the hair, zaps it with electricity and pulls the dead hair out. Sounds easy huh, yeah right. I had an hour and a half which isn’t much and didn’t have much hair to begin with and I swear I could have smeared my face on a brick wall with less pain. But I didn’t have to worry about hair ever again. So then I tried another approach $1800.00 for two years of laser facial hair removal. Here I was thinking, a way of removing hair with little pain.

Heat will burn the follicle out which sounded fast and easy, ah what was I thinking here? It hurt just as bad and I smelt hair burning, sunburn after my first treatment, and seventeen treatments to go. This treatment they smear a jell on your face which is quite cold, and then they take a object that looks like a hand scanner and points it at the hair. With the pull of the trigger you see a flash and a pinch which feels like someone had pulled back on a rubber band completely and snaps your face, ah hello?? I screamed, cried and begged to stop. Who invented this thing? Seventeen more times of someone snapping me with a rubber band to have a completely smooth face?? And the kicker, it only works with dark hair and light skin. No sun tan this year. Now I have to go back for the electrolysis for the light hair.

To have a smooth and beautiful soft face without shaving, you need one or both of these treatments. Imagine the rest of your hairy body; thank goodness I am not hairy.

With that said, the therapy and hair removed we can move on to (HRT) Hormone Replacement Therapy which is great for me, it balanced out my hormones and made me feel better again. As an intersex person with both genders, the female being the strongest I was in premenopause. Premenopause treatment means to cure hormonal imbalance,

hot flashes, the night sweats, the facial hair (darn hair), the depression and lack of energy, getting angry at the drop of a hat, and heart palpitations it was time to see my doctor. Aren’t you happy not to be like me, can you imagine?

HRT replaces the hormones naturally occurring in his/her body with those of the other. Both genders must be on this in order to transition.

Most transmen (female to male or FTM) report an increase of energy and an increased sex drive. Many also report feeling more confident. While a high level of testosterone is often associated with an increase in aggression, this is not a noticeable effect in most transmen. The changes they get are deepening of the voice, hair growth on face and chest. Some transmen are unable to pass as men without hormones. The most commonly cited reason for this is that their voice may reveal them. The testosterone is in the blood is about 70 minutes, so it is necessary to have a continuous supply of the hormone for masculinization. Change the shape or size of bone structure. However, this may decrease the bone density slightly. Dramatically reduce facial hair growth in most people.

Now for the transwomen (male to female or MTF) HRT often includes estrogens and progestagens which has a significant psychological impact, which is hard to distinguish from hormonally induced changes. Many also report feeling more confident, breast development, enlarged nipples and aureoles, thinner skin, significantly reduced body hair, change in body odor and sweat production, redistribution of body fat.

With HRT, you are going through puberty all over again in the gender you were supposed to have. In my teens I started developing breasts which then stopped, and again I am back growing them after 35years with some help. It is summer, which now I can not go outside without a tee shirt. Also be careful with your new growth, one tap and you’ll be bawling like a big baby.

This treatment is forever, you need the hormones to stay this way and if you discontinue you end up like you were before treatment but with permanent changes including sterility and gynecomastia.

So there you have it, some of the finer things we have to do in order to live our lives the way we were supposed to be.

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