Halloween and the update

Happy Halloween....Its been a whole month since I last wrote. I am looking forward to my trip home, actually looking forward is putting it mildly. I am actually counting down the days and hours, isn't that sad.
When I return to Virginia, I have plans on leaving there in January and returning to Illinois but I have a couple more chemo treatments to complete. The tumor will not be removed yet because it sits too close to my spine so with that said the surgeon will not perform the needed procedure until the tumor has shrunk. The chemo doctor suggested 6 more treatments, once a month and stronger ones than before.

How will this effect me, well the last treatments made me energetic the very next day and ill on the second, so I am wondering what the new medicine will do to me. Also I lost all my hair which has since then grown back and am growing hair now on my chest and a mustache. I have never had to worry about that and something with the chemo has triggered that. More electrolysis and I will be hair free again.

Since my last treatments I had lost 48 pounds, if I had lost in the conventional way it would have been a miracle but I lost muscle too which made me look skinny and unhealthy. I have gained 15 lbs now and putting it back on with muscle, trust me when I say this is way harder than it sounds.

The trip up north will not only be refreshing but will also heighten my spirits, I miss home where my friends are, my support if you will. Being on the east coast really didn't work out for me, tried it and was highly disappointed. Also wished I had met some of my friends there, Suzanne and Breanna I am hopefully going to see as well as my favorite "anonymous female". Also supposed to meet Cosette Lee, she lives in Virginia somewhere.

If I had my way I would meet all my friends, maybe I will take a road trip soon as I get established and travel meeting everyone, that would fulfill a massive dream. My friends are so important to me, they are my support and give me reasons to fight my illness.

I am sorry for waiting so long to update this blog, and to think all I have is time. I also should be writing my book but again, the reasons are the same with my blog worrying about something I can't control and it leaves me with nothing but wasted time.

I hope you all are alright, have yourself a Happy Halloween and I will be seeing you again soon.

Time to hide, the kiddies will be here and my brother didn't buy any candy. Now thats a trick and my treat lol.