Changing and for what?

Funny since when do I follow the direction of others, well I did this week and today I had my beautiful length of hair chopped off which I donated it to locks of love.

It was said that I would have better results finding a job with shorter hair than longer, so this will be a test and I know for a fact I will continue to grow my hair out. As the days move on I have noticed my hair style has made my face more noticeable and the smile that is my trade mark is brighter than ever. No I have no ponytail anymore and the hour of keeping it clean and creme rinsing is gone, doesn't mean I don't miss it, cause I do, I would twirl it when I was nervous.

As soon as I get some alone time, I will doll myself up and show all of you my new haircut, I really do like it, by the way it is a feminine cut :-)


After baking a cake (no frosting), I think I ate four slices from it and the rest I slung out in the backyard, the birds really do enjoy that treat. I love making them happy and well fed, and the best part is they sit on the electrical line above my fathers van and crap cake all over it :-)

That is what I call getting even for chipping my nails.

Today is Mothers day, usually I go to the cemetery with one red rose and spend an hour with my Mom, not today, my truck is acting up so I will talk to her here because she is always with me. Every time I go to the cemetery I end up crying and be depressed the rest of the day so I will avoid this at all cost. Twenty five years ago she was laying asleep in her hospital bed, she escaped the pain finally. Cancer ate her up, nothing anyone could do, she fought it for 18 months. This lady was amazing, with a MBA only to be a house wife, mother and my best friend. Some days I can go without thinking about her, but days like today (Mothers Day) I have her on my mind.

The job hunting has been so depressing, I even went back to looking for maintenance and plumbing positions just so I can pay some bills. Hopefully some company gives me a chance soon.


Well I guess I will go watch the birds poop on my dad's van, that is the most entertaining thing I can do now besides fluff my hair.